this place is my intoxication

Friday, August 15, 2008

what is wrong with the country it's jus too hot!!
i'm about to head out to study yet again,feelg very grouchy today actually.
don really wanna head out. =(

hot hot hot hot hot
bye bye

we'll all learn love
12:21 AM

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Wednesday, August 13, 2008

67 Ford Mustang Shelby GT-500 2 fuck'n love this car so sexy hmmm yu-MA.
haha.i wanna do car like this as a tattoo.. =/ I WANNA OWN THIS SHIT !!!

chants* get rich,get rich.....

that pic up there is bev the only real person i know.as a friend la.

HV;AOIH;OHW;OGHWA;OH
08 so far thru alr and this is the 1st time i'm posting shit.

hmmmmmmmmmm.

today,stayed in the whole day sutdyg and on the lap top..waited for casey to head home from some sch thingy but she got back damn late so didn meet.met up with bev and had stingray lala kangkong and rice.yummm haha.

fuckg dunno how to do this blog thing alr...so weird type out shit and put up.HAHA

ANYWAY,talkg to bev now fuckg 4.48am have to wake up later at 1030.grrr.anyhow,we smoked talked abit i saw the new stuff before that at ambush..i think two shirts are nice.don have pic thou so nvm....actually never thought i'd like anyth from there cause everytime i saw someth from there it was always too loud for me.but now when i look,actually quite nice!but i only like OF and maybe the other brand i think it's called obesity and speed.ya that's what it's called..nice.

body pain =(

hungry =(

want to smoke.. =D

don think i'l ever quit smokg cannot even breathe porperly still feel like i need to smoke.so shit.
bye bye
i go sooooooooooot

we'll all learn love
1:43 PM

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Monday, November 19, 2007

i haven been here for so long i've somewhat given up on this place..this is why i'm putting my feelgs here.my only intoxication,a good thing to me right now.

loving you,is what i was tryg to do.

i've had rought weeks along the way since the last time i came here..which was july..how many months have passed and so have many other things.people i hang out with have changed too,my relationship has gone thru alot birthdays have passed,how weird is this?the year is coming to an end and i haven done much to make a difference in my own life..but i think i've helped in alota other things not pertaining to me. it's good to know that i've grown-ish. leanr alot about commitment,about my job..and about myself. well,i guess i have accomplished stuff for me. =) someth to celebrate to!haha.

(violin plays) if you could return,dont let it burn,dont let it fade.
i'm missing you,i'm such a fool for you
you got me wrapped ard your finger..do you have to let it linger?

friends always come and always go.
live for yourself and stay true to the person you know you are.

i miss simran.
like,alot.
i miss bev =/

i miss YOU.
why?because things fall apart so easily..you know,it is hard.for me..and it's not that i dont want to let you in,i'm fearful of pain..some ppl say they grow numb to it.but i'm not them,i'l never grow numb to your actions..you and only you know the complexity of the situation,i really wish you didn get angry at me and call me names then,but i meant it when i said if that's what you want you can jolly well go,have it. make yourself happy,at the expense of someone elses feelgs.but isn that so cruel?i never want you to be sad or to know you'r cryg and hurtg,this is why i've kep quiet for as long as i can..but yesterday,i remembered so much.and i cant imagine how it must'v felt for you then.you know this is your fault but you'r gonna have to change.i miss you so much you know?but this doesn mean i'm gonna give in to everyth,i'm not.this time,i've decided i wont.i will do what i want.you'r given time.i want the change to be permanent.you'r right,when you said "i know you think i'm jus throwing my words," exactly what i was thinkg. and "but i really mean it and i will show you" now doesn that sound familiar?now i know how you felt exactly.
but know what's so funny?i'm in love with you and i love the way you are.always.
so let's get this over and done with then we can start being normal.

still,always and forever.
i will see beauty from pain.

sometimes i feel like i'm slipping away

we'll all learn love
8:22 PM

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Wednesday, July 04, 2007

sometimes i feel like it's impossible to be able to ____ you.
you'r never happy. you always want more than you'r already getting.things ppl cannot give to you.why is it some ppl are like never satisfied. why?what makes your life like that? =(

everyth that surrounds me now makes me sad.and i thought i could learn to understand.but sometimes it's so hard to understand things that everyone else seems to not understand aswell,which means.i dunno.i'm not even making sense now. is anybody here?everyth's a mess all over again.you keep trying to pick up pieces of broken whatevers you'l never get better.the more i hold on to someth the harder it is to let go.how?

how!? *&^%$#@!

we'll all learn love
7:40 PM

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Wednesday, June 06, 2007

You're so solid,it burns inside of me.

haha,i think we had fun going there..i went to trance with puff nat and vans..geeez!killer!it was nice but there was this ah beng there.HAHA.who gives?nvm.

oh well.i'm bored..at work.was fuckg cranky this morng.. =/ i'm sorrry to whoever i pissed off.oh well.doesn matter now.
love,you know. <3 forever always.and ever after! =))

ah!5:26pm..GOOOOD.back to work. FUCKED UP.

we'll all learn love
8:43 PM

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Sunday, May 27, 2007

Drying up in conversation,you'll be the one who cannot talk.
All your insides fall to pieces,you just sit there wishing you could still make love.

don't leave me high,don't leave me dry.

so,i'v been at work..and today's sunday..so it's rest day..i'm not having all that great a day.and i'm not really bothered i dunno why.i'm supposed to get outta here soon to meet _____.i honestly am kinda upset..here i was having a problem and there she was out with a bunch of ppl who couldn decide where to go and all that.but you know what?i'v been thinking bout it and actually,i guess i jus miss her so much i jus want to be with her all the time.

you'r the best,forever.
i cant stop thinking bout you leaving..i dunno what my life'l be like with you out there so far from me..it's not even mins..it's days away from me,me going there,i'l lose one day there..you coming,same same.i wish i could take you and jus get away..i know if i had the resources i could!!!but i dont. =( yesterday's conversation made me think..so much.i want everyth good..and i know you do too.one step at a time?you know,i love you more than anyth or anyone ever..and whatever happens,you know i'l always be here for you.i promised before,i'l still keep to it. =) <3

we'll all learn love
4:42 AM

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Monday, April 16, 2007

i dunno,i love you.i know that's for sure..i dunno why i jus had to see it.i dunno why i stumbled apon it.. =( i really dont blame you this is entirely me!that's the thing..i love you more than you know.and i promise to be faithful to you,and give you everyth you need and try to the best of my strength to provide you with as much as i possibly can.you know that.i'm sorry..i need time off.i need to sort myself out again..cause i'm being screwed by this one thing.jus this one thing..i'm jealous when i see that.i know it's so far away from now but what can i say?lookg at it,it takes me back to that time..and you know what?i jus had to be stupid and look at the date,right?stupid fuck.I HATE HIM.i hate all this.i'm sorry..!!!!!I'M SORRY........i wish you were here to help me forget..can you jus erase that part of the memory in my brain and trash it?please?

jus promise me one thing.one thing only..don do that to me again please?please.i'm on my knees.

it's break'g my heart.is he everyth you wanted?now you know why i compare.do you?
please.ahhhh.i dunno.

goodnight.

we'll all learn love
11:04 AM

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