Monday, November 19, 2007
i haven been here for so long i've somewhat given up on this place..this is why i'm putting my feelgs here.my only intoxication,a good thing to me right now.
loving you,is what i was tryg to do.
i've had rought weeks along the way since the last time i came here..which was july..how many months have passed and so have many other things.people i hang out with have changed too,my relationship has gone thru alot birthdays have passed,how weird is this?the year is coming to an end and i haven done much to make a difference in my own life..but i think i've helped in alota other things not pertaining to me. it's good to know that i've grown-ish. leanr alot about commitment,about my job..and about myself. well,i guess i have accomplished stuff for me. =) someth to celebrate to!haha.
(violin plays) if you could return,dont let it burn,dont let it fade.
i'm missing you,i'm such a fool for you
you got me wrapped ard your finger..do you have to let it linger?
friends always come and always go.
live for yourself and stay true to the person you know you are.
i miss simran.
like,alot.
i miss bev =/
i miss YOU.
why?because things fall apart so easily..you know,it is hard.for me..and it's not that i dont want to let you in,i'm fearful of pain..some ppl say they grow numb to it.but i'm not them,i'l never grow numb to your actions..you and only you know the complexity of the situation,i really wish you didn get angry at me and call me names then,but i meant it when i said if that's what you want you can jolly well go,have it. make yourself happy,at the expense of someone elses feelgs.but isn that so cruel?i never want you to be sad or to know you'r cryg and hurtg,this is why i've kep quiet for as long as i can..but yesterday,i remembered so much.and i cant imagine how it must'v felt for you then.you know this is your fault but you'r gonna have to change.i miss you so much you know?but this doesn mean i'm gonna give in to everyth,i'm not.this time,i've decided i wont.i will do what i want.you'r given time.i want the change to be permanent.you'r right,when you said "i know you think i'm jus throwing my words," exactly what i was thinkg. and "but i really mean it and i will show you" now doesn that sound familiar?now i know how you felt exactly.
but know what's so funny?i'm in love with you and i love the way you are.always.
so let's get this over and done with then we can start being normal.
still,always and forever.
i will see beauty from pain.
sometimes i feel like i'm slipping away
we'll all learn love
8:22 PM
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